Life Update.

Apparently there are people out who work Monday to Friday 9-5 get home just in time to watch The Chase on catch up and settle in for the evening and can actually switch off. Now to me these people are just like those infamous Nandos black cards, you’ve heard about them, yourself and no one you know has one but apparently they exist somewhere in the world.

I’ve spent all day today updating my CV, which hadn’t been done in years, I was fairly comfortable, or maybe just a little afraid of making the jump or most likely just lazy, I never got round to keeping it up to date in my old job. Traipsing through job sites and search engines to find the perfect career is a job in itself; everything sounding so pretentious/lame/or really not what you’d imagine. Take the sandwich artists at subway for instance (yes that is their job title, no I’m not kidding) I’m sure I can speak for the majority of us when I say I’ve never come away from a Subway with a work of art style sandwich; delicious yes, Monet maybe not. My point being sometimes they make jobs out to be so much better than they actually are.

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I’m not really sure what type of job I’m looking for which makes looking for one even harder. I’ve had so many conversations with people I know about things like this. A lot of people I know, don’t even know what they want to do with themselves and there is often an awful lot of pressure, especially on the younger generation to sort of know what to do. I am at the tender age of 22 and I have no idea. I know what I don’t want to do which helps but I still have a list as long as a piece of string about my possible career options.

One of my favourite things to do is people watch. Much like everyone else apparently, now I feel even more under pressure knowing that as I’m clumsy as sin and anyone could be watching me trip over thin air outside a busy starbucks. But I used to do this with my friend Leah at my previous job and I remember one afternoon we had a couple of the maintenance people instore fixing something and we were both saying after they left how they seemed to truly enjoy their job. Which we thought was kinda strange and a bit of an alien concept to the both of us. PEOPLE ACTUALLY ENJOYING THEIR WORK? Is that a thing?!!?  It’s something I wish sometimes to be honest. I’ve never really known or had a longing to do just one thing in particular but I have always been so jealous of those that had. I am much, much happier since leaving my previous job however where to go from here has left me in a bit of a dilemma, sort of like I’m at a crossroads and the Cat in the Hat has just bounced out of nowhere with a chuckle and ran off with the map.

I’ve toyed with the idea of going back to college and learning a skill, something that will separate me from the rest and perhaps give me a new lease of life and introduce me to something I enjoy. And maybe help me meet new people. I have a small handful of friends and over time that handful is getting smaller. That isn’t a real problem because the friends I do have I wouldn’t change for the world but it can get a bit lonely at times.

Since quitting my job in July, I’ve felt kinda all over the place, I was a shop manager at 22 and I felt like that changed me for the worse and very quickly defined me too. I was stressed out all the time and the only thing I could think about or talk about was work, BOOOOOOOOOOORING. It took a few weeks for me to normalise to regular life, going from high intensity to lie ins (for the first time in months and months and months may I add) and doing whatever the heck I fancied. I felt like I was on a gap yah but remained in sunny old blighty without having to buy a visa to Thailand to find the New Abbie she was discovered on a day trip with my best bud to Weymouth. Not exactly the glamourous moonlight party on a thai beach like most, but hey who wants to be like the others eh?

It came to me on one of those very cheesy 2p machines at the arcade that I wanted to do fun things like this everyday. I want to feel happy, have a positive relationship with my family and friends, make Abbie happy and just do FUN things everyday. So until I’ve found the job that’ll make me do backflips and cartwheels I’m very content with making my own happiness. Whether that be learning something new, I really want to go to a sushi making class or taking up belly dancing, or dying my hair blue, then pink then bleach blonde cos why not? Or booking tickets to a gig or a comedy night or a festival on a whim. I’m sure to keep you all up to date with what I’m up to either on here, on my insta feed or on my twitter too.

What I’m also trying to say, if you’re going through the same thing. Don’t worry because so am I. Everything happens for a reason and life is for living. I have been a bit hesitant in looking for another job as I don’t want to end up in the same way as I was last time. So taking some me time can never work out for wrong reasons. And hey, maybe you’ll see an ad for tap dancing, discover your passion for it and become the new and improved Michael Flatley and you can thank me in your memoirs or in that infamous Ellen Degeneres interview in years to come??

15 thoughts on “Life Update.

  1. I think that very few people actually have things all figured out an know exactly what they want to do. If they do in their early 20’s then it’s more the exception than the rule I think. Enjoy the journey and do a lot of things is my best advice! One day you’ll find something you love but all the things you do along the way help you get to where you’re supposed to be. Everything is a good learning experience.

    I don’t think most people love their job and by mean love I mean if they won the lottery tomorrow would they still work? Probably not, or is that just me? 😛 You might not get a job you love but a job you enjoy going to and working at, but leaves plenty of time for you to do what you love outside of work. That’s ok too! There is no right or wrong path to take really. Good luck but I’m sure you’ll find what you’re looking for 🙂


    1. Thank you so much for your kind words Paolo. I know what you mean completely though. I think if you won the lottery it would be so hard to remain with a ‘normal’ life as much as people say they’d want to stay as they are and carry on working! I suppose a job for a lot of people is just something you have to have in order to earn money and make a living and I’m no exception to that rule! That’s the tye of thing I want to find I think, not too stressful but still enjoyable, nice colleagues and I look forward to going in. I was in a role where i was literally counting down the days til my day off 🙂

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  2. This is such a sweet post, and something I completely resonate with! I felt the same after I graduated and finished my work as an au pair – I felt quite a bit lost and downheartened with the change of pace and lifestyle. I’ve been working in my job for a year now and have completely settled in, and even starting to think of what’s next. You’re completely right – everyone feels this way!


    1. Thank you. I’m quite glad you felt the same and I’m not the only one! It can get quite difficult to get to grips with going from a routine to nothing so I’m glad you know what I’m on about. I’m glad you’re settled in your new job too 🙂

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    1. It’s quite refreshing to know that sometimes. I felt like in my circles everyone I knew was dead set on something and had their heads firmly screwed on. Thank you so much for your words though Lea, it means a lot 🙂 xx


  3. I could really relate to this post! Even the job hunt is designed to be so pretentious with all these formalities like sandwich artists and CVs etc. Maybe if we put aside these pretences and actually got down to the nitty gritty, people would actually find it easier to figure out what they want to do, and finding fulfilment employment at that. xx


  4. oh my god. This post is actually me.
    Of course, you don’t need me to tell you that it’s FINE that you don’t know what you want to do, bit I totally get how frustrating it is to be in that position (I am, too), and how lost you can feel.

    Good luck with your job searching and thank you for sharing this because it makes me feel more normal! x


    1. I’m glad you’re in the same boat it makes me feel a little less lonely about it all! Thank you so much for commenting and that you feel the same. It can be so difficult and there can be so much pressure to figure something out. Good luck with your job hunt too! Xx


  5. Yes, there is such a thing as enjoying, or even loving your job. But many people are just too afraid to go after that, and instead depress themselves doing something they barely tolerate or even hate.
    But doing something you love, or will love, still requires hard work, probably even harder work and effort than those ‘standard’ jobs. But you are still very young, and you already seem to have accomplished a lot at your age, so I’m you can make that idea of doing something you love a reality!


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